point of view

Finding my voice again feels a little presumptuous What do I have to say? Only the unfinished Perhaps I'm no longer grieving, No longer longing as before Perhaps I don't dare to speak for fear the good will vaporize More likely I'm less alone these days There are two and the Lord who hear my heart these days I have become wife I have become mother Perhaps I don't dare to speak for fear of hurting those who long for these titles Perhaps I've heard some try to teach the how As if they knew it all I don't goodness, I don't. But I am learning new things I suppose we all are.

I'm sure most of us have heard it at one point or another.  You're talking to someone who loves you dearly and is trying to comfort you after a plan or dream has fallen through.  You are disappointed, and they say, "God has something so much better in store for you!"  They are right, but somehow it's not comforting.  You might have wanted to say, "I don't CARE!  I don't want a better plan, I want this one!"  Sometimes God's sovereignty can feel like a cruel joke.  Certainly it's more comforting to know that an awful struggle is a gift from a loving God, rather than an uncontrolled catastrophe with the power to destroy us, but still I find myself looking in confusion to my Father and in my hurt crying out, "Really?  Why this?"  In times like this it can be easy to become angry with God for not letting us have it our way. A few evenings ago I was with two friends and the conversation turned to the past year, of the t...

Some of the 'gifts' from my gift-list , as of late.  Also some random pictures of life since leaving Canada, in no particular order.     2932. Linda's sweet cards, one for each day of my first week...  And another to be saved "For a sad day" 2934.  Discovering the park up the road with Heidi 2935.  Stringing pearls together....  =)  (There will have to be a follow-up photo of our creation sometime!) 2936.  Sharing a coke with Heidi before she got on the bus 2937.  Becky's fresh bread 2940.  Finding the little Saturday farmer's market at the end of the road (complete with 10-year-old busker, cafe, and train station) 2942.  Audrey Hepburn movies free online =)  2944. Whipped cream in my coffee 2945.  The AOC songs ripped from youtube on my mp3 player 2946.  A sweet "do-not-open-until" card from Heidi to help make my bi...